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All this Melancholy
Industrial Complex sees
is weeds
They seek
to annihilate us
Polluting with misery
But we know
how deep our roots grow
Dandelion
Resilient flower
You’re the one
Defiantly blooming
Through the cracks
In this rust belt hellscape
Polluting with misery
And we know
How deep our roots grow
Trauma won’t stop you
Reach for the sunshine
Seeds set free by winds of change
as these plumes traverse the earth
From grey concrete
To greener pastures
You spread beauty
Flowers growing everywhere
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ANGER: Katabasis
02:51
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It’s not you
Who uniquely penetrated depths
Of heart mind and soul
For a mystical destiny of
Healing and growth
It’s you
Who just brings out certain things
In certain people
Through your chameleon nature
Mechanically
In this random chasm of circumstance
I confused the special
With the inevitable
It’s not you
Who will be leaving better than
When found
Or given a companion throughout
The distance of this mortal life
Knowing a valued love is forever
It’s you
Who leaves me
With a moment in time
I must grapple with eternally
And another valued love
I carry within
My compartmentalized heart
Painstakingly preserved
Solitary lessons felt, not learned
It’s not you
Who made mistakes more grave
Than what forgiveness and
Understanding could bear
It’s you
Who guarded yourself
So much
So much
I still don’t know
It’s not me
Who succeeds at meeting needs
Or getting needs met
Harmony denied
A Gordian slipknot of intention
Tied tightly
Suffocating
Over complicating
It’s me
Who will try
And who is doomed to fail because
You have to choose
To try
Too
It’s not me
Who will crack the code
And provide what’s been denied
It’s me
Who will use love like a cudgel
To bludgeon a closed safe
Best left to be picked deftly
By a more subtle soother
Or perhaps
The vault opens willingly
And the mansion of
Labyrinthine walls
Is easily navigated
When no one tries to pry at all
It’s not us
Who remain best friends
Regardless of what one intends
This too, ends
It’s us
Who handled
Vulnerability clumsily
Dropping this baby on its head
Trauma remains in stasis
A changeless prophecy
Here I go
Confusing special with inevitable again
As if there aren’t 9 billion other people on this planet, as if
Amongst them
There’s no one more suited
To being the best of friends because,
for damn sure
It’s not you.
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Intimacy
Vulnerability
Why can’t you
Get closer to me
Difficulty
Reciprocity
Why can’t I
Get closer to you
To get Warmth
We get Pain
Seems each leads to the same
Is it our nature we must blame?
Can a closeness be sustained?
Will this relationship remain?
Desolation
Dissolution
Dichotomy
Yearns for harmony
Balance found
How can this be?
Hurt and Grieving
Hard time believing
Acceptance,
and trust is true
We gain warmth
Conquer pain
The conversations change
Communication without blame
Dialectic entertained
In our hearts this care is maintained
Revelation
Resolution
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We had bad Boundaries
Our friendship became a rope of sand
It hurts
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I thank you for
The time we spent together
I wanted more
But nothing lasts forever
Through all this change
The only way is forward
This pain is strange
What we are moving towards
You mean so much
And I hope you remember
How you have touched
Me through our time together
I wish you well
And hope you achieve your goals
You’ve been through hell
Yet you’ve healed so many souls
I will carry you in my heart forever
I will carry you in my heart forever
I’m sorry for
Any pain I have caused you
Which closed the door
On my giving back joy to you
I respect your right
To walk away from this
I understand
Why you can’t stay in this
I’m better for
Having shared time with you
I support
Whatever you feel you need to do
When you’re able
When you feel like you’re ready
Be vulnerable
Trust is trauma’s remedy
I will carry you in my heart forever
I will carry you in my heart forever
Please heed these words
While you’re enough on your own
Don’t push away
When you finally find those lifelong friends
Please heal your wounds
We know trauma won’t stop you
It is ok
To take a break and start again
I hope you find
All the love that you deserve
And love in kind
Without fear of being hurt
I hope you find
All the love that you deserve
And love in kind
Without fear of being hurt
I will carry you in my heart forever
I will carry you in my heart forever
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I met you and
It changed me
Briefly we called each other
Best friends, then
We ran into issues
Folly after folly piling up
You said that you didn’t know
How we could move forward
Affinity turned into
Turbulent chemistry
Bitter intimacy
You said that you know
For me it would be hard
You don’t know how challenging
It is
To grieve the loss
Of our friendship
And to know
That you chose this
I scream at your silence
I ache from your absence
You’ve washed your hands of me
Fed nectar of pain
A factotum ingrained
With negativity
Depression’s drone
Drowned out by dulcet tones
Of oceanic empathy
Old traumas erased by you
And replaced with some new
Short lived propinquity
I failed to see
In my Monochrome reality
Through loss I still gained
Colors now known
I’m open
I feel
Looking outward
Your droplets of insight
Caused ripples
Changing me inside
Shattering reflections
Of Narcissus’ pool
Adjusting my actions
with newfound tools
Channeling humanity
Thanks to you
I’m wounded
But I’ll heal
I wish you well
You will always be loved by me
And I am grateful
To have known you
With this perspective
I can learn
To reframe my pain
To let you go
Accept what is
And
eventually
move
on.
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The Lance Daily Project Rochester, New York
I'm a musician who has collaborated with many better musicians over the years, but due to struggles with mental illness I
have devolved & decided to not release anything else to the public. This page is a document of what I created before and during my decline.
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